Fun in the Sun

I'm going on a trip, a trip, a trip! I'm so excited to get away for this weekend. Soon, (in the next 48 hours, I'll be basking in the warm glow of the San Diego sun, with six of my closest friends.

Actually, with two of my closest friends, and three guys that I would count as friends if I knew them better. As happy as I am, I'm a bit apprehensive about this weekend, for a couple of different reasons.

Sidenote: I've notice lately I haven't blogged all the topics that I want to, because a few things have made we strongly aware of the lack of anonymity I have on here. I don't like the idea of having anything I write interepreted in a hurtful way towards people I care about, I just want to be honest about how I feel. That said, here are my reasons.

Reason 1- I really don't know everyone very well. Up to now, when I've gone somewhere with these guys it was always in a pretty large group. Even the times that I spent with them in college normally surrounded some type of event. A party, a dinner, or whatever. Those types of situations allowed me to do something that I'm pretty good at, avoid being the center of attention. Sure, I'm always somewhat social with all, but I tend to quiet down, stick to the sidelines a bit. I normally spend most of the time talking with the people I feel closest to, notably C-Breezy. With less people, the dynamic is sure to change, and I may have to open up a little more than I'm used to. That thought does scare me a little, but since I like these people, I'm sure it'll be alright. Lord knows, Panama says enough for us all, so I'll probably get of the hook anyway!

Reason 2- I'm close to both of the girls going this time, but I know that I tend to be drawn towards one more than the other most of the time. And both the times that I've gone on these getaways, the other girl didn't come. I'm slightly worried that this might cause a little tension at the beginning, cause she's never seen me behave like the rest of these people have. Funny thing is, the group is acutally seeing more of who am really am now, as a person. I'm concerned that she might not like my actions, or my interactions with people that are essentially her friends. It may sound silly, but I know how that is, cause I've been in that same spot. Still, if we can come to some happy compromise, I'm sure things will work out fine. Bottom line, I'm gotta be me, right? And you either accept it or don't.

Those are pretty much my only concerns, other than what to wear, and what to pack. This vacation is right on time, at the end of a very long project at work. And since my own computer has been down for the count for a few days (the stupid monitor broke), I definitely need something other activity to relieve my stress. I hope everyone is ready to have some fun! I sure am. If you're going, see you tomorrow! If not, we'll write all about when we get back.